A Name is a Name is a Name (with apologies to Gertrude Stein)
During the 80s Jilliana got involved again in Personal Development courses. This included hypnotherapy and NLP workshops where she had to have dialogues with her other self or visualise her other Self. Well, was Tessa, the sister she never knew, that other Self? She attempted a dialogue but of course it was one way and fruitless. Thus Tessa was abandoned forever.
But she still wondered to this day why there had been Victorian brown ink writing saying 'Gillian Tessa' on the reverse of a sepia photograph of Mathew Bolton Georgian silver candlesticks owned by her grandparents who were antique dealers in Swansea.
Who was Gillian Tessa?
As Jilliana was often called The Queen, she decided to 'brand' herself accordingly.
Even in Chania, when in 2013 she was invited for Xmas Evening dinner in the home of the American artist John Tierney, she was told during the evening that the children had seen her walking towards the house and had run up to their parents excitedly saying 'the Queen is coming'!
Her best friend Pauline would often call her Queeny or Rani after we discovered that Rani was queen in Hindi and that she would be going to India. Years earlier she laughed when a formal letter arrived to Mrs Rani Car. The postal sorter must have been an Indian!
When she went to Turkey and began wearing bones (a type of turban), she called herself Sultana Jilliana befitting a queen.